You comment, I give you an age (please tell me how old you currently are - I don't know all of your ages unfortunately) and you fill out the meme questions with what applied to you back then, and now.
koyaaniisqatsi gave me 17.
I lived in:
London, with my family.
Nothing - hellish public transport baby!
I was in a relationship with:
As single as a fart in a church.
Dogs. Seriously my phobia of dogs was really ridiculous - a newborn puppy could send me into tears (don't ask me why I was afraid, I just was :B)
I worked at:
I couldn't find work. Nearly got a job in a shoe shop, but I was turned down due to a lack of retail experience :/
I wanted to be:
Able to get into any university that would take me.
Now (at 23):
I live in:
Same place, still with family in London :B
Still with the public transport until I can afford to take driving lessons.
I am in a relationship with:
Allll by myyyyself~
Never getting employed and never leaving London..
I work at:
Just volunteering at a charity shop :I
I want to be:
Employed and out the country.
- Current Mood: amused
I had just written a long-ass entry for my new update and LJ just jerk to another page randomly. When I hit the back button, the whole post was completely gone >:[[[
I've just about had enough of your crap LJ. I swear, every time I attempt to make a post the site is either down or glitched. It only works when I'm in lurkers mode :|
I'm just a bit pissy since I was actually in a good mood when I was writing that post. Granted it was about nothing new, apart from signing up for a Maths GCSE course to improve my grade and being rejected for being too stupid \o/, it was a nice and lengthy post written in good humor, and now I just can't be bothered.
Aside from re-watching/catching up with House MD, I've been giggling over The Most Popular Girls in School series.
- Current Mood: annoyed
- Current Music:'Get Happy' -
New years resolutions:
- Give up coffee for 3 months (1 month at least).
- Sign up for a maths course and redo my Maths GCSEs.
- Finish writing the book I've been working on since god-knows-when.
I should get my art blog back up again, I was in a bit of a mood when I deleted it all <.< I've been feeling depressed lately but thankfully it's been manageable and I'm starting to get some stuff done. I'm attempting to clear out my mother's stuff (I swear if it wasn't for the rest of us living in the same house, I have a feeling the woman would have gone full hoarder mode years ago. :/ ) - so far I've managed to clear out about two large piles of magazines and started sorting out the board games to take to the charity shop. She was a bit reluctant about getting rid of the mags, but once I pointed out that most of it was either torn apart or water damaged she agreed to chucking them out.
I was suppose to be going out on New Years but the phone calls for plans never came and I could not be bothered to call lol. For the most part I've been feeling pretty numb to everything lately - not in a sad way (though like I've said before; I have been feeling depressed recently, it's just not been the kind of depressed where I can't get my shit together or end up feeling to bad to live etc...) - just basically feeling unenthusiastic for life. Eh, I can only keep on plodding along til something happens :)
- Current Mood: apathetic
I know I haven't been updating much, but oddly enough whenever I had thought about updating LJ was down o_o Just a weird coincidence lol.
Life continues to be between meh to sucky in the sense that I feel like I'm going no where in life - but I'm still being optimistic, mainly because the other option involves me lying in a ditch and drowning in a pool of my own tears and disappointment. My motivation to write or to draw something other than fanart has pretty much halted, but I'm working on that.
In unrelated news - I've invested myself in a series called Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica - so far I'm up to episode 7. I thought it was going to be a cute show, until it git dark and depressing with a creepy bunnycat walking around... but it's still pretty interesting to watch.
And other times I've been occasionally ambitious and started writing and re-writing my novel that I've been on and off about writing :I My graphic novel is in a toilet of failure and thus I've abandoned it like the heartless creature that I am in my worst moments. I've got plans for other stories but I can't see myself being committed to them. This is what I've become - the heart breaker of my own ideas. I start off thinking "Yeah! I can do this. Lets get this baby made and done." Then over time I get either distracted by life or bored to tears with the convincing idea that everything I do is shit and will result in failure. Then I give it one last push of motivation before giving up and saying "I'M DONE", throwing the towel in before moving onto the next seemingly better project.
Still I'm keeping hopeful that I'll find the right story with the right kind of motivation to go behind it
I've also been volunteering for quite sometime now at two charity shops. The one that I've been working at the longest is the Salvation Army - which I had my doubts about working there since there have been anti-LGBTQ incidents involved with them, mostly refusing shelter (although I think those reports took place in America, but it wouldn't surprise me if the same thing has happened in the UK) - but the place I work at genuinely helps everyone out regardless of sexuality/gender/etc... Although the branch I work at doesn't specialize in shelters, just emergency food packages and sleeping bags/kits for the homeless, the Captain in charge does help people to find nearby shelters and organizations to send them to with his contacts. That being said, the only thing I'm allow to do is help manage the shop that helps to fund for the items above. Still I've made a few friends and learnt about retail (now to actually get a job ha ha).
I'm just in a good mood because I have a cheese sandwich and I'm reading Adventure Time theories whilst listening through my music files and cleaning out my files 8]
and now to end this post with a work of art cereal commercial.
- Current Mood: chipper
Hope everyone has a good day/night 8D
- Current Mood: amused
I swear I actually forgot it was my birthday this morning, it doesn't help that I already forget how old I am. Lol, I'll probably keep thinking I'm 21-ish until I'm 30 ha ha ha.
It's been a good day today :) I'm a bit sad that I couldn't go to the London Excel Convention today (although it's probably wise not to go since I'm already running low on money and a con would probably help me make impractical decisions to buy everything :I), but I had a nice meal with the family and hung out with Roisin for a little bit before going back home to watch the Hunger Games (Because it's totally a cheerful movie :x... totally).
Tomorrow me and Roisin are going to the fun fair for her birthday :3 Hopefully the weather won't be too crappy for the day, although the cold snap started today :I Winter is finally here~
I've got two outfits planned for Halloween >D Killer Panda or Kiki from Kiki's Delivery service... although it might change depending on my mood and the weather outside.
- Current Mood: bouncy
Lol I keep saying that I'll stop lurking but I never do. I apologize for being a smelly liar on that note.
Back to the meme...
Dead Poets Society.
It's your typical teenage 80s movie - centred on an all-boys private boarding school known for it's good representation and long-lasting traditions, where the kids rebel against the man yo. Their motivation for breaking the mold is brought by Robin Williams, the new English school teacher who introduces poetry into the student lives through unusual means that could lead the students to - gasp - think for themselves!
But seriously, it's pretty ok movie. There are a few giggles and some decent scenes in it, despite one or two things making me wanna roll my eyes and facepalm away - such as the lovely reminder that one of the purposes of poetry was to help pick up babes :I It just rubbed me the wrong way and kind of ruined the movie for me. But that aside, I did like everything else... I was also amused by the fact that one of the characters Neil, who is pressured by his parents to become a doctor, is played by Robert Sean Leonard - who plays the part of Doctor Wilson in House. And yes I am easily amused.
Sorry about the sloppy writing in this post, my right arm is hurting thank to a twisted nerve in my back and it's making in hard to move at the moment. Damn...
Well tomorrow is the graduation ceremony and I'm already on the verge of crying my eyes out of mild hysteria.
I know it's a dumb thing to panic about since all it's only a matter of getting my roll of paper, waiting about and getting free booze at the end (woo hoo!) - but I'm having this sort of paranoia about everything going wrong on the day. I know it's silly to worry over nothing, but I can't just wish it away.
It probably doesn't help that September has been a bit on the rough side so far, and it has gotten to the point where I'm just expecting it to get worse (Debbie Downer ain't got nothing on me).
Aside from the bouts of depression, which has thankfully been few and far between since May, and still being unemployed - I was attacked by some drunk git a couple of weeks ago :/ He shoved me into a brick wall as we were passing each other by, pushing my head hard enough to slam me against the wall and called me a 'tranny' before speeding off around the corner.
I wasn't hurt too badly - I just had a sore arm where I had landed against the wall, but I was so angry afterwards. There was no point in reporting it since physically there wasn't really any damage done, plus there were no cctv cameras facing the direction of where I was walking and I probably wouldn't be able to recognize him since I wasn't really paying attention to the guy when I was walking by. The thing I didn't understand was the 'tranny' comment :| Clearly he was being transphobic, but I didn't get why he called me that - it was so random... I don't know. All I can do is wish bad karma on the bastard and get on with my life.
Just wanted to vent it out even though I have talked about it with my friends, writing it out feels better.
On a happier note I'm going to an Ed Sheeran concert with Erika next month for my birthday :] and we might be going to see Florence + the Machine in December if Erika can get tickets - but even if she can't, we'll still have Ed :D
I was going to combine this with another Last Movies meme, but I don't wanna do it right now. I might go watch Kamikaze Girls again to cheer myself up... and just to end on a slightly relevant musical note, I really like this song from the movie :B
- Current Mood: nervous
Essentially, the actual plot for this movie would probably fit into a space of 45 minutes and leave the remaining 1 hour and 15 minutes to eye candy.
Although I have to admit that the costumes and scenic shots were very well done at an aesthetic angle - I felt that the pacing of this film bored me to tears. It ended up dragging in the time it took to look at all the 'pretty things' of the era whilst getting from point A to point B, acting as filler for around two hours. Even though there were some very interesting moments plot wise, all together in this structure felt a little bit tedious. I don't know - I think I liked this film better in segments than as a whole; especially the random Shopping spree montage that would do any teenage 80s/90s movie proud.
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- Current Mood: bouncy